The despair of all relationships is the true beginning of your awakening. Many people have experienced this, or are currently experiencing it—it's a natural moment in life. Having encountered the evil of human nature, faced the collapse of trust, and endured the abyss of despair alone, one loses all illusions about any relationship. Once a person reaches the point of not wanting to speak, not wanting to argue, not wanting to flatter, and not wanting to please anyone, losing interest in visiting friends and the excitement of family gatherings, becoming increasingly distant from various circles, and beginning to live only for oneself in the remaining years, that is when you have truly opened up to your own life.